Holly Madison has lifted the lid on the first time she got intimate with Playboy's Hugh Hefner, saying it was "all very mechanical and robotic".
The blonde, 42, was one of Hef's girlfriends and rose to fame starring in The Girls Next Door, a series about life at the Playboy mansion.
She is opening up her life there in new show Secrets Of Playboy, and during the premiere talked about the first time she spent the night with the late star.
According to US reports, Holly said she went to a nightclub in LA with Hefner and his girlfriends and that he offered her a quaalude, telling her they used to be called "thigh openers".
"I thought it was just really weird," she said. "That night I drank a lot because I was nervous."
The group later went to the mansion and Holly ended up going upstairs with them.
She described what happened next as "all very mechanical and robotic," adding: "It was really gross to me how Hef didn't want to use protection.
"The impact it had on me was so heavy. I never expected to be the first person to have sex that night or pushed into it."
Holly spent time living at the mansion between 2001 and 2008, before she ended her relationship with the Playboy mogul.
She has also said in the new show that life in the lavish pad was like living in a cult.
She said: "The reason I think the mansion was very cult-like, looking back on it, is because we were all kind of gaslit and expected to think of Hef as, like, this really good guy.
"You started to feel like, 'Oh, he's not what they say in the media – he's just a nice man'."
She continued: "Another thing that reminds me of a cult is how it was so easy to get isolated from the outside world there.
"You had a 9.00pm curfew, you were encouraged to not have friends over. You weren’t really allowed to leave unless it was, like, a family holiday."
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